Okay, so lately I have been thinking about sex. To be exact Eric, Sex, and me. I just keep daydreaming about Eric and this hottie named Zach. I heard that Zach isn't a virgin and I kind of want to go out with him. Eric isn't a virgin anymore either. Or at least that I know of. They could be both just trying to make themselves seem all man-like and tough. In other words- all talk no action. God, but they are both so hot and I just don't know. I always thought I would wait until marriage to lose my virginity, but now I am having second thoughts. If I didn't wait I would use protection, of course.


Then I think, what about God? Like I said before I am half Jewish Half Christian. As a Christian I know that God would forgive me for not waiting. Still, a part of me feels disapointed that I am not strong enough to wait. I always think about marrying Eric or Zach. I daydream like a little 12 year old. God, I don't know. It just seems like I would be letting people down. My grandmother is Catholic. If she found out she'd flip. Sure she didn't wait to lose it, but she married the asshole she lose it to. They divorced after having my mom. I just think about doing it everywhere with every hottie I know. God, am I a slut or something?

I don't even care about getting a bad reputation at school. I don't care about being called "Easy" "Slut" "Whore" or anything else. I crave it and I've never even had sex yet! I sound like one of those guys from "American Pie" or "Porky's". I had a dream that Zach asked me out and then we went to the movies and held hands and stuff. God It felt so good. I want him. If I wasn't tied down by religion I would go for it, but I wonder what God thinks of me right now. Is he disapointed? What would he do? I am so confused.

I got an email from my friend, Denzel. It list all the benefits of having Sex.


Did you know that you can tell from the skin whether a person is sexually active or not?


1. Sex is a beauty treatment. Scientific tests find that when women make love they produce amounts of the hormone estrogen, which makes hair shine and skin smooth.


2. Gentle, relaxed lovemaking reduces your chances of suffering dermatitis, skin rashes and blemishes. The sweat produced cleanses the pores and makes your skin glow.


3. Lovemaking can burn up those calories you piled on during that romantic dinner.


4. Sex is one of the safest sports you can take up. It stretches and tones up just about every muscle in the body. It's more enjoyable than swimming 20 laps, and you don't need special sneakers!


5. Sex is an instant cure for mild depression. It releases endorphins into the bloodstream, producing a sense of euphoria and leaving you with a feeling of well-being.


6. The more sex you have, the more you will be offered. The sexually active body gives off greater quantities of chemicals called pheromones. These subtle sex perfumes drive the opposite sex crazy!


7. Sex is the safest tranquilizer in the world. IT IS 10 TIMES MORE EFFECTIVE THAN VALIUM.


8. Kissing each day will keep the dentist away. Kissing encourages saliva to wash food from the teeth and lowers the level of the acid that causes decay, preventing plaque build-up.


9. Sex actually relieves headaches. A lovemaking session can release the tension that restricts blood vessels in the brain.


10. A lot of lovemaking can unblock a stuffy nose. Sex is a natural antihistamine. It can help combat asthma and hay fever.



That's like saying, Just Do It! How could something so 'bad' be so good?